Holding on

composed by: jirl

I hope you are always taking the best of care of yourself
I am missing you so much
There is never a day that I don’t
I am always missing those hugs and kisses we shared for many times

Although you seem so distant now,
With the lack of proper communication and all
My love for you has never faded at all
…Instead, it is always growing

Though I am always hurting,
With the absence of our nourishing and nurturing oneness,
My fondness over you has never waned at all
It is always finding a way… to engulf my heart

There were many days that I want to surrender
Give up my love for you
‘Coz I felt it was so unfair that I am always hurting…
While probably you without knowing or realizing it all

But things would always take their own course
And stop me from ending my love for you soon
Each time, though…
I would end up crying alone in my own world
And nurturing the pain until
…I become numb

You see, my love
I am loving you with all of my heart
With the sincerest and most unconditional way
I could never see myself not being so
‘Coz I always believed you were whom
…God wants me to have for the rest of my life…

I am terrifyingly affected by the extreme longing
And the absence of our once complete and healthiest flames of love
But, this I want you to know…
I am holding on…
Onto our rings of love
…and unconditional love